hmm

well,
right now,
im trying to change myself
become a gud gurl back .
sorry for wat i done.
let it go . let is past
everything gonna be alright.
and also giving up in sumthing.
hope i will get a better life in 2010 year

im GIVING UP.

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i wan to say sori to ah ee and xin cen and maybe others too.
sorry for wat i have done.
ee,i know u care about me.i know myself have change till more worst
i know,i really know..the reason i change i also dono why..and u guys also dont know wat happen actually..dont simply said something if tat thing not true n never happen..i know that sure many ppl tell u about me..
im hurt too..i just can sorry..i also hope that myself can change back
but at least i treat u guys still the same
u guys still my best frens in my heart
maybe u guys canot accept me anymore. my heart very pain when i see and hear u guys do like tis.
but what can i do..oredi happen..i just can say sorry..all my fault.i never blame u guys..i really miss the moments when we spent together like before..i hope can turn back like before again..i reli reli hope our frenship can back like before again,have fun together,happy and sad together ='[
im reli reli sorry for what i have done and change...
useless if i explain..just blame me..i dont mind cos u guys are still my best frens..thanks for caring..

♥

again & again..
break it again..
everything just lik a dream..
its okay
u guys dont understand me..i wonder why some ppl just like to judge me for no reason..
u guys dint know anything,den can simply said something..
u know wat the feeling is it after u do tat..nvm
wat can i do? i sabar jak..put it inside my heart..nobody know
but you guys will know it n understand one day..
i dont mind wat people said.. the mouth is urs.. just up to u
but think before u do and say.

♥

wat happen to myself tis few days or few weeks?
i feel tat i have change.
really..im not before tat vivian yu li wen anymore.
haha

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i want to back when im just a little kid.

doyouguysreallyunderstandme..
doyouguysreallyknowwatimtryingtodo..
doyouguysreallyknowwhatmylifehappening..
doyouguysreallyknowwatineedactually..
doyouguysreallyreallyknowaboutit?
sure u guys think im annoying,cos im owez sad all of the time.
hey,im not acting okae? some of u dont really know wat happen,then just shut up ur mouth.
tats all i wan to say.
isee,ihear everything
its enoughforme.
enough..
=')

♥ i dono wat to do.

right now,im living in a fuckin place.
i reli feel wanna leave in tis fucking place
i hate everything right now.
i owez do the good thing,nobody seems to remember !
yea u r right, everyone blame me ? wat also my fault.
alright,nvm. i will sabar ! but i dono i can stand it untill when
dont force me pls ! im gonna crazy soon.
i will leave here nex year ! tis is so confirm !
dont fuck wit my life ! fucker !
papa n mama ! im sori ,im not a perfect daughter !
watever. u guys r sucks ~ u guys make me dissapoint ! i dont nid u guys if can !
but no matter wat happen,i still love u guys ! wat can i do?
im sick of my life !
feel tat everybody is gonna leave me soon !
i miss my frens ! i miss it,really miss it.
i have nobody,im nobody,im juz a bitch ! everyone hate me please.
why i cant get wat i want? why others can,but i cannot? why?!
i just wan a simple life,happy everyday. izit so hard for me? pls bah
the problems come everyday ! after solve it but still come ! wat the fuck !
u guys never understand my feeling. always think tat u guys r right,all my wrong.
sometimes i cant control myself,hide myself and cry lonely. ahaha ! wat a stupid me ! tuii~
i just wan alone if can !
sometimes hope myself kena langgar by kereta ! fuuuhhh~
pls dont hurt me if can. please -
sorry i cant be perfect .
time pls past more fast n fast !! i wan to leave in tis fuckin place call miri ! fuck yew.
papai.

♥ my fuckin life

uhuk..oredi 2 weeks i dint update my blog ! ohoh..feel lazy to update oredi..well,in tis 2 weeks,reli happen too many things..maybe i have forget some oredi..huhu..nvm..i juz write wat i have rmb those bad things happen in tis 2 weeks..huhu..ermm..i dono how to start.. aiks..i feel so tired in my life oredi ..reli tired..i wish i can leave miri bah..go somewerelse start my new life..after i turn back wit him,i feel tat more terok than before..everyday quarrel..juz a small kes also wan to gadoh untill like tat..i reli x tahan like tis ow..when we gadoh rite,i relly feel regret to accept him back..i dono why..juz feel hurt..maybe wat u said is right,i never understand ur feeling,but how abt me？do u understand my feeling too? both of us got wrong,don blame each other..after the things happen,afta u do tat to me,u hurt me,i have change..not same wit before tat vivi anymore..u make me change untill like tat..but i still know wat im doing,i also hope i can back same like before..but its hard for me to change..cos i cant accept it..im sorry if i have hurt u or wat..but i dint mean wan to hurt u,u hurt me too..try to think..maybe i have hurt u,but i still love you..i reli wish tat we wont gadoh everyday..don so temper pls..i reli canot stand it u noe? its suffer to c us like tat..sometimes reli make me want to quit in tis relationship..single life is better i think..but its okay..juz sabar..and i still rmb i had told u before..if i turn back wit u,i cant same wit dulu anymore..the feeling is not same wit b4 anymore..maybe hard to trust u anymore..tat time becos i trust u too much,so will happen tat kind of thing..if can i wish..we are okay everyday..if not i reli will choose to leave..juz dont control me much and try to trust me..i oredi tell u many times,before we couple,i don like ppl control my life !! cos i had try b4 wit my ex..my ex control me reli too over,i had tahan him more than 2 years..at last i also said break wit him,so i reli hope u wont do the same thing too..hope u can understand..the second thing is about ah ee my babe ..hurm..i dono wat happen to her..suddenly less talk and come find us..she has change..not like b4 anymore..owez hang wit us..hurm..i reli want to know the reason..i dint go and ask her..i also don wan to know..cos maybe i know the reason..or maybe not..i juz hope wat she has choose..wat she has done the decision..she wont regret about it ..girl..take care..owez love u and miss u..maybe u r not anymore..if can pls tell me the reason why u become like tis..i will wait for u =') saturday 24 oct reli a happy day..ahak ! we have open apartment at imperial hotel..we play thr,celebrate ah ling birthday ,steamboat thr,have fun tat day ..yeahh !! i miss tat nite..it was a happy nite..i cant forget about it =)
mwaahss,brothers 4ever yeah !! love u guys.. ok larrh,tats all i wan to say..upload some pics too :)

♥ big girls dont cry.

aiks..tis few nite..before slp..donno why..my tears will suddenly drop down.ahak !
erm..maybe i think too much? but i think is true wat i think abt everyday..
i feel very very tired in this kind of life..i dont like my family sometimes..my dad never care abt my feeling..always want to quarrel wit him..i reli don wan like tat bhaa..very suffer eyh..mom n dad,u guys dont juz think tat all things is my fault bhaa..dint do anything wrong also my fault..i know im juz a kid..but try to understand my feeling maa..when i do something great..u guys never seems to remember..but when i do something wrong..u guys will rmb always n will remind it again..haih..nvm laa..my dad said he will leave here..ask me follow mom..when i hear abt tis..im reli very hurt n my tears keep rolling down..i donno why..i don feel wan to follow mom..maybe i oredi biasa wit my dad..but if can..i juz wan to live alone..but in my heart..i still love my mom n dad no matter wat happen..even they don wan to care me anymore..im still love them =')
sometimes..when i saw my frens happy n sweet wit their family..den my heart will feel very pain owh..huhu..at last..i wan to say sori to qaliesha,izumi,kiki n one of their fren..sowie for las friday nite ..cos buat uu guys susah ..thx for helping too.. tat nite reli reli bad mood n sad .grr..i cant stop thinkin abt it..haiyaa..stress..

♥ lazy to update =p

workin time =) karen,cen n vi

magnum 4D jackpot =D 29/9/09

raya time wit mr.ariffin ,eating aiskrim miloo =D

fatty vivi

raya at qaliesha house 26/9/09

oiyok! dint update my blog for one week oredi..huhu..malas bhaa..well..raya holiday is over oredi ! very enjoy in this one week holiday..very epi n crazy XP start school oredi..gonna exam nex week..pra spm OH NO!! hate it bhaa..today jadual spm also out oredi !! gonna start on 18 november wednesday !! OH MY GOODNESS...abit scare baa..dono wat to do..gonna graduate oredi,gonna leave stco soon..very sad eyh =( 5 years juz pass like tat..damn fast owh..uwaa..and also kena pilih to go plkn..hope i can go far from miri,don wan go soon hup thr..hua hua hua =p and i don wan the first group,cos i still wan go kl wit my babes on nex year january go shopping for cny ..huhu..hope laa..pray for god..amen =)