Monday, October 26, 2009

♥ my fuckin life














uhuk..oredi 2 weeks i dint update my blog ! ohoh..feel lazy to update oredi..well,in tis 2 weeks,reli happen too many things..maybe i have forget some oredi..huhu..nvm..i juz write wat i have rmb those bad things happen in tis 2 weeks..huhu..ermm..i dono how to start.. aiks..i feel so tired in my life oredi ..reli tired..i wish i can leave miri bah..go somewerelse start my new life..after i turn back wit him,i feel tat more terok than before..everyday quarrel..juz a small kes also wan to gadoh untill like tat..i reli x tahan like tis ow..when we gadoh rite,i relly feel regret to accept him back..i dono why..juz feel hurt..maybe wat u said is right,i never understand ur feeling,but how abt me?do u understand my feeling too? both of us got wrong,don blame each other..after the things happen,afta u do tat to me,u hurt me,i have change..not same wit before tat vivi anymore..u make me change untill like tat..but i still know wat im doing,i also hope i can back same like before..but its hard for me to change..cos i cant accept it..im sorry if i have hurt u or wat..but i dint mean wan to hurt u,u hurt me too..try to think..maybe i have hurt u,but i still love you..i reli wish tat we wont gadoh everyday..don so temper pls..i reli canot stand it u noe? its suffer to c us like tat..sometimes reli make me want to quit in tis relationship..single life is better i think..but its okay..juz sabar..and i still rmb i had told u before..if i turn back wit u,i cant same wit dulu anymore..the feeling is not same wit b4 anymore..maybe hard to trust u anymore..tat time becos i trust u too much,so will happen tat kind of thing..if can i wish..we are okay everyday..if not i reli will choose to leave..juz dont control me much and try to trust me..i oredi tell u many times,before we couple,i don like ppl control my life !! cos i had try b4 wit my ex..my ex control me reli too over,i had tahan him more than 2 years..at last i also said break wit him,so i reli hope u wont do the same thing too..hope u can understand..the second thing is about ah ee my babe ..hurm..i dono wat happen to her..suddenly less talk and come find us..she has change..not like b4 anymore..owez hang wit us..hurm..i reli want to know the reason..i dint go and ask her..i also don wan to know..cos maybe i know the reason..or maybe not..i juz hope wat she has choose..wat she has done the decision..she wont regret about it ..girl..take care..owez love u and miss u..maybe u r not anymore..if can pls tell me the reason why u become like tis..i will wait for u =') saturday 24 oct reli a happy day..ahak ! we have open apartment at imperial hotel..we play thr,celebrate ah ling birthday ,steamboat thr,have fun tat day ..yeahh !! i miss tat nite..it was a happy nite..i cant forget about it =)
mwaahss,brothers 4ever yeah !! love u guys.. ok larrh,tats all i wan to say..upload some pics too :)

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

♥ big girls dont cry.


aiks..tis few nite..before slp..donno why..my tears will suddenly drop down.ahak !
erm..maybe i think too much? but i think is true wat i think abt everyday..
i feel very very tired in this kind of life..i dont like my family sometimes..my dad never care abt my feeling..always want to quarrel wit him..i reli don wan like tat bhaa..very suffer eyh..mom n dad,u guys dont juz think tat all things is my fault bhaa..dint do anything wrong also my fault..i know im juz a kid..but try to understand my feeling maa..when i do something great..u guys never seems to remember..but when i do something wrong..u guys will rmb always n will remind it again..haih..nvm laa..my dad said he will leave here..ask me follow mom..when i hear abt tis..im reli very hurt n my tears keep rolling down..i donno why..i don feel wan to follow mom..maybe i oredi biasa wit my dad..but if can..i juz wan to live alone..but in my heart..i still love my mom n dad no matter wat happen..even they don wan to care me anymore..im still love them =')
sometimes..when i saw my frens happy n sweet wit their family..den my heart will feel very pain owh..huhu..at last..i wan to say sori to qaliesha,izumi,kiki n one of their fren..sowie for las friday nite ..cos buat uu guys susah ..thx for helping too.. tat nite reli reli bad mood n sad .grr..i cant stop thinkin abt it..haiyaa..stress..